no good

I think I no longer am good at anything.

I feel like I just completely suck at everything and that everyone's just better than me.

I always work hard but I envy those who don't even try and still get what they want. I wish I didn't have to deal with this kind of emotion. I just think that my life really is dull and boring, no excitement, no contentment I'm always looking for that thing that just makes me satisfied with life but sadly I haven't found it yet. 

I think that's the kind of mentality I have and what's worse is that I'm a pessimist, I don't know how to look at the brighter side of things, I just look at the worse side of it. I know it's everyone's problem to over think things and just make a complete different story about a little thing, that's also my problem too.
 I really can't control it, unless I really have a good distraction from just plainly thinking.   
please save me.